June 18th (lucid dreaming)

I did it. I completed the first step of lucid dreaming: realizing i'm dreaming and that none of it is real. I was back at my old school again, in the lunchroom, talking to people that I haven't made amends with yet. They acted like we never fought. Then I went home to a party. The party included; Jeremy, his family, and a girl I will not name here. (but one i'm not too fond of) When jeremy walked through the door I remembered thinking about dreaming and then started wondering if this was a dream or reality. I knew it couldn't be reality because Jeremy is in Europe and doesn't come home until next Sunday and I knew there was no way(as much as I would love it) that he would come home early. I also realized this girl and him do not talk, so there is no way he would bring her to my house knowing I do not like her. I stopped the dream and told the people that they were not real. It helped put things in perspective for me but after that nothing else really happened. I couldn't control anything as much as I tried but I guess that takes practice. The next few dreams weren't as easy for me, I could not tell if they were real or not, nor do I think I even tried really. They were the embarrassing dream types: naked in front of hundreds of people, accidentally cheating. Awful, but not traumatizing. And I wake up.